The Tidal waves of soul searching.

My wounds are healing, my scars are less sore,

I feel like myself every day more and more.

The thrashing waves, and once violent sky,

are calm and peaceful as boats sail on by.

Yet in the blink of an eye the calm sea becomes rough,

The sails are less sturdy, the anchor less tough.

The storm returns with a vengeance; its wrath,

destroying all that lies in its path.

She prays and holds onto her body tight,

she protects it with courage and all of her might.

She reminds herself that she commands her own ship,

she takes back control, she tightens her grip.

The sun through the clouds slowly comes into sight,

The eagle soars as he reaches flight.

 

 

 

Who Am I? The Painful Journey Of Self Love and Acceptance

What is self love? It’s a feeling I lack,

After years of war and facing attack.

This feeling i’m immune to, its foreign and wrong,

This is a feeling for someone brave and strong.

To love oneself should be an unspoken rule,

Yet I have to teach myself how like a child at school.

I tell myself: I’m not perfect I am me and that’s ok,

I’m where I need to be, i’m going my own way.

No one else’s path matters, focus on your own direction,

looking at what others are doing wont bring me affection,

wont make love return; a resurrection.

 

One mind, one body, one spirit, one soul,

With love and acceptance as a guide, a goal.

But a dichotomy lies, a war of the mind,

One born out of hate, the other one kind.

Who wins the battle, who will reign?

Just an innocent by stander in this gnarly game.

Where do you turn, which route do you go?

When one voice cries sabotage yet the other screams no.

Will you wither and die or will you flourish and grow?

This answer is something you really don’t know.

All the while reaching out as this standoff commences,

a battle of two minds deep in the trenches.

Is there a way out will you make the right choice?

In the midst of the chaos can you find your own voice?

The one of love, of guidance not fear,

The one that reminds you softly ‘I am here’.

 

 

 

Love Is A Battle Field…

img_1840He pulls away you latch on more,
The unknown is painful your past wounds are sore.

Not knowing if you’re worthy or enough,
The sea is rocky the storm is tough.

In no mans land without a map,

Do you keep trudging forward or do you head back?

This intensity you feel deep down inside,
do you sit with it,embrace it or run for cover and hide?

Those deep brown eyes that see into my soul,
That warm embrace that makes me feel whole,

Am I holding onto a rose that can’t be revived?
Do I power through this storm hoping it will subside?

Is what he feels for me the same as what I feel for him?
Standing on the edge but too nervous to swim.
Hostile freezing waters what lies within?

Is it time to cut the anchor, to break away from the chain?
That is strangling and shackling, my strength I need to regain.

My inner power is screaming, desperate for release,
The sea ready to swallow me, ready for my decease.

Do I sink or swim, do I fight or fly?
Will my power save me or will my fear let me die?

But the moment I hear his voice that strength becomes weak,
In that second he opens his mouth to speak.

He holds my hands, looks into my heart, all my intentions, my promises break apart.

Navigating no mans land I continue to roam, trying to find my map to lead me home.

Top 5 superfoods for 2016

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Unleash your wellness warrior this year with these top five super foods that will help you to feel the hippest and healthiest version of you.

Matcha

Matcha tea is an easy and simple way to add powerful health benefits to your everyday diet. One serving of matcha tea is the nutritional equivalent of 10 cups of regularly brewed green tea, this is because when you drink matcha you ingest the entire leaf and receive 100 per cent of the nutrients contained within! Known to boost metabolism and burn calories, matcha energises the body, enhances mood and aids in concentration. When that all too familiar afternoon slump hits and you start to feel peckish, make a warming brew of Matcha instead! Rich in fiber, chlorophyll and vitamins, this month try swapping your coffee for a good cuppa’  matcha to wake up the mind and body.

Lucuma

Derived from an ancient Peruvian fruit, lucuma powder delivers an abundance of health benefits when added to your favourite food or beverage. Viewed as a symbol of fertility and creation, for thousands of years lucuma was referred to as the “Gold of the Incas” and was used for a variety of applications. Its unique caramel like flavour serves as a natural sweetener, and is perfect for adding to healthy desserts and baking! In addition to satisfying your sweet tooth, this amazing superfood is gluten-free and provides a source of antioxidants, fibre, carbohydrates, vitamins and minerals necessary for bodily functions. As an added bonus, research shows that lucuma may be helpful for supporting skin health, blood sugar, and even cardiovascular health – what’s not to love!?

Camu

The camu berry is one of the world’s most abundant sources of vitamin C. This antioxidant-rich berry from the Amazon is also a plentiful source of potassium, calcium, protein, beta-carotene, amino acids and powerful phytochemicals. Camu fruits are the highest documented source of vitamin C – providing 200 times more than a banana, and 30-60 times more than an orange. Vitamin C has been linked with stronger immune systems and protection against viruses, helping you fight off those nasty colds. Try a tablespoon of camu powder mixed into a glass of water (instead of berocca!) for a healthy kick-start to your day. 

Bee pollen

Great for sprinkling over your porridge or blending into smoothies, bee pollen is one of our favourite all-natural energy enhancers. With just 2-3 tablespoons needed, the carbohydrates, protein and B vitamins can help keep you going all day, by enhancing stamina and fighting off fatigue. Also a skin soother – the beautifully golden granules ofbee pollen are often used in topical products that aim to treat inflammatory conditions and common skin irritations, like psoriasis or eczema thanks to the amino acids and vitamins which protect the skin and aid the regeneration of cells. It also contains enzymes that can aid in digestion, and are good for intestinal flora, thereby supporting the immune system.

Birch Water

Considered the “Tree of Life” the Birch tree is said to have healing properties. Birch water has long been favoured across Nordic folk cultures as a spring detoxing elixir. Naturally diuretic, it supports kidney and liver functions and speeds up the process of elimination and weight loss. Its slightly sweet syrupy liquid is low in calories, naturally fat- and cholesterol free, and super hydrating, also boosting the immune system. For those needing a catalyst to continue burning excess fat: birch water helps balance the body and alleviates the problems faced by those retaining water.

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Letting Go Of Thoughts…. The Art Of Mindfulness

A penny for my thoughts….

Just as clouds glide in and amongst the constant sky, our thoughts come and go from our minds. Our thoughts are what we are thinking at a certain moment, so why is it often so hard to just accept and acknowledge them? why can we not let them pass without becoming consumed and overwhelmed? As a train arrives and shortly leaves from a station, to be replaced by another one our many thoughts appear and then disappear. Yet as a train breaks down and becomes stuck, often we let our thoughts become trapped in the passageways of our minds, ruminating and brewing to boiling point until we have catastrophized a situation so much, that it takes over every cell, controls every feeling and often paralyses us with such overpowering emotions.

Mindfulness allows us to become aware of these thoughts, enabling us to accept and analyse where they have come from,  so we don’t internalise them in a harmful way. It is interesting yet saddening to notice that, often  as an insect that crawls into the tiniest of spaces, That harsh voice sneaks its way into in our mind, blurring our judgement so that we may see thoughts as if they are facts. For example: “I am a failure”, “I am not worthy” or it takes a situation, blows it way out of proportion and condenses into a belief; “I did this so that must mean I am a horrible person”. In this way, these heartbreaking core beliefs that we have led ourselves to see as cold hard facts, can be thoughts that have manifested negatively over time. When we start to pay attention to our thoughts, in a gentle way, we can use mindfulness to think about the way we are thinking, so that slowly we become unconsciously able to allow them to be without using them as ammunition to wound ourselves.

I am seldom able to watch my thoughts wander ‘lonely as a cloud’. Instead I stew in a thought which in a flash creates a feeling, that in turn leads to a behaviour, that develops physical sensations. Suddenly before I know it I am waking up from a powerless trance having self harmed because I wasn’t able to let the thought gently float away like a lily downstream. A gnarly weed has now grown from the murky water, latching itself onto the side of the bank, creating a sticky quagmire. The key to resulting in a different outcome would have been to notice the thought, be aware of its presence, but allow it to delicately slip away, and be joined by something new.

Life is a rich tapestry, woven together by the roads we take, the choices we make, and the challenges we face. The magic in these threads, is that they can be undone, allowing a second chance to create a new pattern, and a new work of art. I believe that with every outcome a lesson can be learned, and with every thought, is a new possibility. I am in the process of weaving new threads, and carving a beautiful new path.

One of my favourite poems by William Wordsworth. For me the daffodils in the poem emanate hope and represent my wellness.

I wandered lonely as a cloud

That floats on high o’er vales and hills,

When all at once I saw a crowd,

A host, of golden daffodils;

Beside the lake, beneath the trees,

Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

Continuous as the stars that shine

And twinkle on the milky way,

They stretched in never-ending line

Along the margin of a bay:

 Ten thousand saw I at a glance,

Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.

The waves beside them danced;

but they Out-did the sparkling waves in glee:

A poet could not but be gay,

In such a jocund company:

I gazed–and gazed–but little thought

What wealth the show to me had brought:

For oft, when on my couch I lie In vacant or in pensive mood,

 They flash upon that inward eye

Which is the bliss of solitude;

And then my heart with pleasure fills,

And dances with the daffodils.